An offering of literary hors d’oeuvres to slight to be entrees… but tasty and tempting nonetheless….


A gathering of essays, opinions

…answers to questions not yet asked


A scattering of poems

…some old, some new, some funny, some true


A smattering of random thoughts

…late at night, walking the dog, half asleep

Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Ka-chink, Ka-chink

                    
[Southwark, the south side of the Thames was until recent times the ‘step sister’ of the more posh northern side of London.  In the middle ages it housed the theatres, the brothels, bear-baiting dens, and the infamous prison called The Clink. The Bishop of Winchester whose See it was protected the prostitutes for [a price.]

Ka-chink, ka-chink, it’s off to the Clink
cause I aint got no money!
I’m dead on my feet from walking the streets.
the Bishop, my pimp he takes what I got
and leaves me nary a shilling.
I’m willing to work, I want to be good,
I’m willing to sweep to scrub but nobody wants
and nobody pays
so where is the dosh that can get me a flat,
somewhere warm and dry.
…think of that!
a meal, a rum, a warm woolen hat!
“Hey Mister, want some?
I got”
“No thanks, honey.” so that’s that.
I finds me a corner out of the rain, chase off the rat.
“Scat!!”
But the ‘Bobby’ he come,
“On your way, Scum! You can’t stay here.” 
So what do I do, where do I go…there’s nothin’ now but That…

Ka-chink, ka-chink, it’s off to the Clink

cause I aint got no money!

Sunday, January 28, 2018

COLD

             Amazing word!

See how the first two full rounded letters fit right into your cupped palm…slip the third one around them, cap with the covering last and squeeze…..SNOWBALL!

Feel the letters creep between your toes, numbing, while you wait for the dog to poop so you can go back inside…

or wash up around your ankles with the tide on the first dip of the season and, shivering, “It’s not so bad!”

oh that icy coating on your tongue as Merry Cherry Berry or one of the other waiting-in-line Springer’s flavors slides sweetly down your throat…

that very special, prickly eerie smell just before it snows
or the refreshing feel of that folded wash cloth mom laid on your hot and fevered brow all those years ago

when someone doesn’t want to talk to you at the party and rudely turns—-shoulder

the wooshing touch of air conditioning just when you thought you might surely melt!

The Inuit have fifty words for snow BUT I have these and a hundred more for… 
      
                              COLD


 
  


Thursday, January 25, 2018

Stone Harbor Point

                                             Stone Harbor Point

               Barrier Islands, what a stodgy, heavy-footed name for those slim strips of sand that almost dance along the gentle inward curve of the south New Jersey mainland. Nomads all, they love a home place but resist an anchor that tries to tie them only here!  Centuries, millennia perhaps they have wandered closer to the staid and stable shore running from hurricane winds but moving back and out into the waves again under summer skies. Seeds flown from otherewheres take hold growing into scruffy, rugged plants, even trees in quiet times. Shallow rooted they travel easily in the restless sands  back and forth along the coast. Until Man, loving these islands, doing what greedy Man seems to always do built roads that stapled the dancing place and push-pin houses that said “You’re not going anywhere!” Anchored, held tight, unable to move, the beaches are cliff-cut by winter storms, bay waters flood, sometimes splitting the fragile land forms into two.
Just two islands north of the open sea Seven Mile Beach has a small treasure. The southern end, beyond houses and streets, is a half a mile or more of unanchored sand and green shrubbed soil floating, almost primordial, back and forth.  Stapling roads,  push pin houses holding all in place are not allowed.  The lovely shoreline free, spreads itself one year way out into the sea, flat with small streams meandering filled with tiny shiny fishlets swimming. Another year the beach, higher, drier hugs the dunes but still fosters inlets for the sea water to meet and explore the land.  I love this place.  For fifty-eight years I have felt the cooling sweep of ocean wash my feet as I walk, entranced, the summer shore.  Even in winter, almost my favorite time, my feet are bare.  How else can I discover and pick up the beautiful whelk shells burrowing into small sand cliffs just beneath the waves.  One spring when the beach was wide and shallow I saw two skates swimming inland in waterways at least ten yards from the open sea! A million tiny, soft baby clams crunch beneath my toes washing back and forth within a coming tide. And birds, dippy terns, sanderlings, thrown like bits of confetti to race, manic along the shore,  plovers, laying their fragile eggs just above the tideline, trusting God and their acting skills to keep danger away, self-important black winged gulls, even the screechy laughing ones welcome me each year as I climb over the last jetty into this  special place drifting on the ocean floor. 











A Family Tree

A fork in the road
A)   B)  C) or None of the Above
A family Tree

Choices all but I think I will go with the tree…my Family Tree.
Too, too many greats back so let’s just refer to her as Grannyancestor and I’ll call her Molly. There she is, brown-eyed, almost tiny, four and half feet tall, but wiry, strong, securely upright, sure footed as she runs through the high rough savannah grasses with her cousin Lucy.  She turns to look back at the trees and for a moment remembers when her people lived in them and swung freely from branches.  What fun that must have been! Her tiny fists curl in memory but soon she spots an interesting looking stone nearby, sharp-edged that might be good for digging roots. This is a new idea! Stooping to pick it up she is suddenly swept by an urge and turns again and looks forward.
She cannot possibly understand what she sees there in the future but she is intriguied, curious, and makes the decision that will in eons of time lead to ME.  Choice after choice, “Oh, he looks strong and brave, let’s go with him,” or “God, he’s pushy, dragging me by my hair into his cave, but, you know I bet he’ll make strong babies!”
And so it goes, on through  that long, difficult trek out of Africa, rounding the Mediteranean Sea, up through northern Europe ,becoming Celtic, eventually seasick in a frail boat Molly’s  Mollys sail the channel coming  home to what will be named far into the future, The British Isles. She’s taller now, she loves the words that form a language known and spoken by many, she understands a wider world beyond what she can see, she learns to read to write and communicate with others far from her small place in the scheme of things. But she is still brown-eyed and still making one good choice after another, picking not only what pleases her but which will lead unbroken to She/Me.
And now we have writing and records so I see for the first time the one of Molly’s sons that becomes my Grandpancester, William Clerich, fifth Chief of the Scottish Clan, MacLeod born in 1432.  There’s actually a book which shows the choices down the years leading to a last, so far, paragraph listing me and my children! 
Here’s an offshoot, one of many branches, that tells of Molly’s son, Richard Floyd of Wales, sailing to America (we are really getting around!), who boasts of his son William who is the thirty second signer of the Declaration of Independence from New York.
His daughter Catherine was wooed by James Madison who followed her on horseback halfway from Philadelphia to New York pleading for her hand.  Just thin if she had said ‘yes’ I would have the 5th  president of the United States in my family tree. But she spurned him in favor of a little known reverend, William Clarkson.  Poor choice, perhaps, but then I would not be Me would I?
Here’s another, Rutgers Clarkson, with his connection to Rutgers College. 
All  lovely people I’m sure but we begin to peter out some becoming more ordinary everyman/woman into the present but still carrying the genes, excitement, the courage the strength and the brown eyes of our own intrepid Molly. We’ve all been pretty much Anglo-Saxon, Scottish, Irish and Welsh, with just a minor infusion of Dutch and maybe a soupcon of French.  Decision time again, it’s up to me now to choose the next fork, the next branch of the tree to explore.  And I do.
We are all richer now, I have chosen an ancient proud, renaissance heritage that, along with green eyes  and great mathematical ability will send Molly forward again, brave and curious, as always into the future.  I have married an Italian!
             







Messy

                                                            Messy
I like messy. It’s warm and comfortable and sometimes beautiful like Gatsby tossing those perfect pastel shirts all over his lost, found love.             .
Fie on “a place for everything and everything in its place”!  How rigid, how boring, how frightened of life those thoughts betray. I wouldn’t live three days in that cramped and tiny space. 
Messy is divergent family members happy to see one another, throwing coats and hats and gloves all over my living room and shoving the furniture willy nilly with no regard for design or ordered placement. Wine glasses are left half filled and plates still hugging sandwich crusts. But oh the talk, the joy of happy disregard, stumbling over each other to hug or “give me five!”
Messy is open, its wide, it breaks rules and “Oh, what will people say?” shrivels into the mound of dog toys scattered in the corner. Its confident and sure and laughs a lot. Putting things back in order delights for the anticipation of throwing caution and order to the winds again tomorrow or next day…whenever.
Life is messy, love is messy, being fully alive is messy but I would not have it otherwise nor waste my days in ‘putting things to right. 
I’m not an ordered house, I’m not even an ordered life…I’m what comes?  What a simple, easy, welcoming wise way to be. I’ve learned at last so move over order and give me room to be whoever, whatever I may be.


Wednesday, January 24, 2018


  

Beginnings

                                                                         .

I touch the tiny dot on the smooth white paper with the tip of my finger. I taste it, it spreads rich and sweet along my tongue. What will I write today? How will I shape it into words that group and grow and become stories, opening doors, feeding the world with my ambled thoughts?

Beginnings are wonder full, scary opens the door that lets in excitement, a briny taste in the back of my mouth promises adventure and something NEW.

I watch the dot soften, wobble, stretch and split apart with tiny spaces in between…words, my words have begun! 

I write a kaleidoscope of images, living again my life, a myriad of phrases, memories.  I break them down, rebuild into patterns full of new vistas.   

I hear the vivid voices scrambling over one another, eager for first place. I choose the noisiest ones and temper them down with a soft whoosh of memory and love for all that has played in the past.

There is so much to come but now, the new, the ever, the fresh, the bursting, blooming beginning!



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